Who is there?

Seems like every time I need to vent, no one is there to listen. Of course I pray, but man it'd be nice to know someone that can relate to what I'm going through. Of course I talk to you Lord, but sometimes I just want a shoulder to lean on here.

#venting #vent #theblues #real #truth

Venting

#venting #Godisalwaysgood

Overriding the negative emotions, it can be tough...but it can be done.

Much LoVe 💜

Hurt too many times to let things slide

#therealonewillstepup #cantbeniceanymore #noshotsfired #truthfullyhowifeel

I'm a fighter at heart...I've endured a lot of things, so a man that gives up so easily is not someone I want in my life. I'm tough because I can stand even when I'm hurt, I cry easily, not because I'm weak...but because I know how to release emotions that can have a damaging effect on how I perceive things. 

Conquer the Mind

We must monitor what is going in and out of our minds.....if you're not mindful of your thoughts, then most likely you'll start picking up or imitating new habits, that in no way benefit you spiritually.

#governyourthoughts #bemindful  

A little personal...what do I want?

I don't want to guess, I don't want to be left hanging...open communication is important to me. I don't like arguing, but I will let you know how I feel respectfully if something bothers me. I'm very sweet, but can be mean if you cross the line. I love affection depending on how comfortable I am with you. I love that I am sensitive, sometimes, because I am very in tune with myself and others emotions or feelings around me. I think a lot, sometimes too much, but that's why I write. I'm non judgmental, but can be very critical of myself sometimes. I just want something real and worth holding on to. Someone that believes in the same thing I believe. Someone going in somewhat the same direction in life. One that's honest and keeps their word. Most of all someone who values me, respects all of me and never gives me a reason to question the relationship.

#mrbrowniepoints

Don't let your heart deceive you

Stop thinking that you have everything under control...our minds should be in a place understanding that we need God.

Dream Log #2

So today I woke up and had dreamed about going into this place that led underground with a light in my hand searching for something...found a child's bike (pink and white) in a dark, dark corner and took it with me and proceeded out of the dark building...water was also leaking in there and to get down there I had to walk down these stairs...it was a long way down. When I got back to the top a man laid hands on me and began to pray saying that a demon tried to mess with me or got in me and he and I prayed...

Dreamed of being in a vehicle and it wasn't stopping and children were playing in the streets and I panicked...vehicle finally stopped and a man and his son approached me laughing and took the keys and I just weeped and weeped from my soul and I felt a sense of strong agony, like extreme heartache in my chest as I wept.

Dreamed of seeing a man saying that the world is focused on 473 and he held up a paper with the number 444 saying it is the key.

Dream log

Dreamed of approaching a bridge with many people and everyone began to cross quickly because of the cougar or bobcat prowling around the entrance of the bridge. I was afraid, I was pregnant and saw a kitten or baby cougar or bobcat next to me and the big cat started to approach me and I shewed it and it fell in the water below the bridge. (I woke up before I tried to cross).

Before this dream...dreamed of being at some celebration or party and a few people were talking about me and I told them about themselves. I went to a public restroom and one of the ladies that was talking about me admitted that she was just mad because of my body shape and I told her that she was beautiful and the conflict was swashed.

Do you dream like I do?

I will start sharing with you all some of the dreams I have...sometimes I can have as many up to 4 or 5 different dreams in a night. My most vivid dreams often happen when I nap during the day. Thought I start sharing a little more of what is in my subconscious.

Share yours....drop it in the comments!
Enjoy!

Dreams

Last night dreamed of seeing my sister read a book of poetry...it was black and gold and green...a really pretty book. The poems on the inside though were odd...they made no sense.

Then at one point I seen my two women cousins mounting and riding away in joy on a horse with a significant other....along with a woman I didn't know and her significant other. I remember admiring the couple and the love they displayed.

Odd dream...yes indeed.

Sealed and Sent

Awaken my creativity and imagination beyond my wildest dreams Lord.

Sealed and sent
Amen

Soul Food "Following your heart"

The question is....should you really be following your heart?

Jeremiah 17:9-10 KJV
9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
10 I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.

So instead of trusting our own hearts....what then can we trust or follow after?

Proverbs 3:5-6 KJV Shows us not to trust in ourselves, but to put our trust in God. Following our heart is like following an untrustworthy guide. We are imperfect, therefore making it impossible as to whether or not everything we do out of our heart (or how we feel) is righteous.

Think on this:
What we think and feel is not always right or acceptable or even valid. Sometimes we have to overlook how we think or feel to solve our issues or even make decisions in life. Emotions sometimes can blind us to the truth or keep us from accepting the truth.

Let your heart be guided by God...don't let emotions drive you or be in control. 

Eat it up

Colossians 3:2
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.

Trying something new

My Affirmations

I walk in love

I exude love

I am love

I speak out of love

I have no lack of love

I am loved by God

I am unique

I am proud of who I am

I am supernaturally creative

I am victorious

I am favored

I have a solid foundation emotionally, financially and spiritually

I have slayed all obstacles

I am a strategic planner

Much love 

New Post

New posts coming really soon!!! Hope you all like the new updates to my page.....enjoy!
Much love and thanks for the support!

Next post----Subject will be on the heart...stay tuned.

Blacks thinking Christianity or the Bible a trap?

Thank God someone gets it! Tired of people saying we were given the Bible or Christianity period as a trap or a part of slavery.... If it was a trap or played a part to keep us down in slavery, then why give us hope? ...common sense people.

Thank you to the original author, who allowed me the privilege to share his post.

#slavery #blacklives #wakeup #truth #bible #christianity #blacklivesmatter

Pride

Message: Pride comes before the fall, be careful, humble yourselves.

#pridecomesbeforethefall #humbleyourself #getoffyourhighhorse

Too many times I have seen and experienced family members who think they are better than the other person. To many times they treat that person or people like they are nothing. What we have to remember is that we all at some point have been at a low point in our lives...and with that being said, WE SHOULD have compassion on the next person, especially family.

Much ❤

To my brothers...you both will be somebody... You are somebody in Christ... You are loved and my arms are always open as long as I live on this earth to receive you.

❤Your big sister

Sealed and Sent

Lord, allow my spirit to pray bypassing my intellect.

Amen

#amen #prayer

Undescribable (poetry by me)

Of course like any other person today just so happens to be a day where I feel empty...depression has settled in..
I have a tarnished relationship with Christ.. I'm broken, strife after strife. everyday won't be peachy and today is just that day....my heart seems like it's failing to slowly decay.
My sorrow within is great... I cry within from a torment state. Trying to hold onto you Lord, but I'm losing my grip...I've slipped, I've fallen, I'm crawling, I'm low and deathly afraid of where my road may go...I'm angrier than the most violent hurricane and as bitter as freshly ground ginger...for the depths of my sadness is but as deeper than the deepest sea and expands wider than the widest universe and my contentment is as shallow as my glass of unsweetened tea. I don't even believe there are words to describe my longing for change, my true satisfaction from a life positively rearranged. No more circles...I just want...what's that word?
...joy.

Sincerely,
me

True To Me

#faith #believe #ibelieve

What color is Christ?

#doesitmatter #whocares #doesitreallymatter #christ

God is love

#Godislove #Godlovesall #Hedoesloveyou

Where is God?

#whereisgod #ivebeensearching #hasgodforgottenme

Something I posted a little while ago..."the world doesn't need happy and successful people all the time...it needs someone who has walked through darkness and came out and can empathize with it"-unknown author

#beenthroughalot

Why are single mother's frowned upon?

Someone posted something about how they will never be a "baby mama" and it kind of hit a soft spot because too many times I've been called "baby mama".

#iammorethanthat #thatsnotmyname #despitewhatanyonethinks #andthatiswhyiamstrong

Sealed and sent to heaven

Save me from my own demise...teach me how to win...teach me how to fly...

Don't Worry

Don't worry... For all those who doubted you, sized you up, counted you out, disrespected you, rubbed your name in the dirt, broke your heart; don't worry...they'll hear good news of you soon...and that's enough revenge right there.

#beinghappyismyrevenge #goodnews

Battles

Pick and choose your battles. There is a certain level of maturity that we should have as adults.

#adults #grown #maturity

Late night thinking to myself

Even when hurting... I still have a song in my heart. I have my days when I'm pissed off, angry and frustrated... Hate to say it, but I'm really only mad at myself....something has to change and real soon...all I have to do is hold on...

🎶What God has for me, it is for me🎶

Poetry by Me "Hardened Heart"

Tired of pretending like I'm okay,
tired of always forcing a smile upon my face,
tired of hiding the way I feel,
tired of suppressing the way that I deal....
deal with constant depression, the feeling of abandonment and rejection,
and the sickness of a loss of positive perception.

I am broken,
and I told God this...over and over again.
I am torn,
and I cried my tears to Him time and time again.
I'm looking around and screaming inside....when will it all end...
I did what I did, when will a balanced life begin?...it just takes me to a place of hurt because I even let go to give in....

But this nightmare....this nightmare, keeps on chasing me
I pray and I worship and get in my word, but it is never enough.
When will this road of mine get a little less tough?

I am hardened and sad...angry...furious, I'm mad
I just want to be happy, but I never seem to find that peace inside of me...
the more I think about my life, the more I want to cry...
I just want to cry and cry and cry and let it all out, but the tears never stop flowing...

I am tired of pretending like I'm okay
and I'm tired of always forcing a stupid smile upon my face
so tired of hiding the way I really feel
suppressing the way that I secretly deal
I've been dealt a hand of constant depression, the feeling of abandonment and rejection...
tired of this sickness...this insidious infection, the sickness of a loss of positive perception.


#Poetry #Broken #Torn

Quotes by me

Sometimes we can start off with passion and enthusiasm, pushing for the things we want and along the way we can get discouraged, lose interest or even get distracted, but I've witnessed that if you keep pushing, despite how negative your situation may seem or how much you feel like giving up...if you keep pushing,  you will indeed see the fruits of your labor.  Hard work and determination, despite all obstacles, will have success in your lap or right at your front door...or you can even say sitting at your table.

Psalm 91:11

For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.

#Bibleverse #Whenyourarelost #lostone

It's been a long time

Man....first I would like to say thank you to all those who took the time to read my blog. I went through a few things these last few months, which threw me off for a while. I'm back and have loads of stuff to post and talk about....hope I grab your attention and hope that I can relate to some of you...hope that I can help and bring some positivity your way....hoping to bring some inspiration and hope and share some bits of my own life and work.


Enjoy...love you much!

Random Thoughts

Going to church does not define your relationship with Christ...treat it like a real relationship...communicate and spend time with God.


Much love