Hurt too many times to let things slide

#therealonewillstepup #cantbeniceanymore #noshotsfired #truthfullyhowifeel

I'm a fighter at heart...I've endured a lot of things, so a man that gives up so easily is not someone I want in my life. I'm tough because I can stand even when I'm hurt, I cry easily, not because I'm weak...but because I know how to release emotions that can have a damaging effect on how I perceive things. 

Conquer the Mind

We must monitor what is going in and out of our minds.....if you're not mindful of your thoughts, then most likely you'll start picking up or imitating new habits, that in no way benefit you spiritually.

#governyourthoughts #bemindful  

A little personal...what do I want?

I don't want to guess, I don't want to be left hanging...open communication is important to me. I don't like arguing, but I will let you know how I feel respectfully if something bothers me. I'm very sweet, but can be mean if you cross the line. I love affection depending on how comfortable I am with you. I love that I am sensitive, sometimes, because I am very in tune with myself and others emotions or feelings around me. I think a lot, sometimes too much, but that's why I write. I'm non judgmental, but can be very critical of myself sometimes. I just want something real and worth holding on to. Someone that believes in the same thing I believe. Someone going in somewhat the same direction in life. One that's honest and keeps their word. Most of all someone who values me, respects all of me and never gives me a reason to question the relationship.

#mrbrowniepoints

Don't let your heart deceive you

Stop thinking that you have everything under control...our minds should be in a place understanding that we need God.

Dream Log #2

So today I woke up and had dreamed about going into this place that led underground with a light in my hand searching for something...found a child's bike (pink and white) in a dark, dark corner and took it with me and proceeded out of the dark building...water was also leaking in there and to get down there I had to walk down these stairs...it was a long way down. When I got back to the top a man laid hands on me and began to pray saying that a demon tried to mess with me or got in me and he and I prayed...

Dreamed of being in a vehicle and it wasn't stopping and children were playing in the streets and I panicked...vehicle finally stopped and a man and his son approached me laughing and took the keys and I just weeped and weeped from my soul and I felt a sense of strong agony, like extreme heartache in my chest as I wept.

Dreamed of seeing a man saying that the world is focused on 473 and he held up a paper with the number 444 saying it is the key.

Dream log

Dreamed of approaching a bridge with many people and everyone began to cross quickly because of the cougar or bobcat prowling around the entrance of the bridge. I was afraid, I was pregnant and saw a kitten or baby cougar or bobcat next to me and the big cat started to approach me and I shewed it and it fell in the water below the bridge. (I woke up before I tried to cross).

Before this dream...dreamed of being at some celebration or party and a few people were talking about me and I told them about themselves. I went to a public restroom and one of the ladies that was talking about me admitted that she was just mad because of my body shape and I told her that she was beautiful and the conflict was swashed.